May or May Not Monday

May or May-Not Monday: Where you can divulge the secrets of life's mishaps without feeling like a failure. So go on... own up. I may have...

I may or may not have walked into Target yesterday for the first time in months and was shocked that it’s turned into Cali. It was CROWDED. Literally in someone’s way the entire time in the store. The return line was twenty people long at least and the line passed the bathrooms. Every single person had the same non Idaho uniform: fake tans, platinum ash long blonde hair, thickly painted on makeup, skinnies and over sized sweater, and zero smiles on faces. Now what makes Idaho so amazing is it’s friendli. We’ve had a lost cell phone returned. Everyone says hello when you pass walking on the streets. Smiles are the norm. Now for all those reasons and more we are gaining more than 3,000 new people a month, making us the fastest growing city in the nation. The thing is you have to participate in the culture that drew you to it. So now I’m not allowed to go to Target or anywhere on Eagle Rd to keep my sanity. 

I may or may not be making a lot of decisions for the coming year to cut things out that bring me stress. Target and Eagle Rd get the ax for that reason and a few other things as well. Usually my stress manifests in anger. So the things that cause me anger are gone. I’m not even going to pretend to be the better person and try to overcome the anger. Nope I’m just cutting. The farmhouse is sitting precariously on the list with those who damn roosters and recent major damage done to the grounds. What ways are you reassessing how things are going? 

I may or may not have been trying out eating grain free to see how I managed because in a few months I’m going to have to as part of my healing journey. I CANNOT do it. I don’t have enough foods I can consume and I just starved. I mean flat out exhausted despite my ridiculous vitamin supplements that are supposed to amp up energy and starving. Definitely not living my best life. 

I may or may not been trying to put a website together and floundering because I’ve never done it before and having to figure it out as I go. I wanted it live by Christmas then New Years and well now who knows. Send help!  

I may or may not have been on an organization kick. So many books and I am running out of places to put them. I did a purge of all mission, church planting, church leadership and discipleship books because my oldest is going to start reading through our adult books any day and I don’t want that material in his head. Still I’m thinking I should ease up on books. Now as the library ‘s best patron I get dibs on free books. I’m not giving that perk up. So I’ve got to come up with something. Is there anyone else out there with multiple closets dedicated for books? Just me?

I may or may not have been thinking about dyeing my hair as I do think about every winter when I start to feel drab and not soaked at the pool or sweating at the farmhouse. I said I’m thinking blonde to my darling husband who emphatically said, No way! You are not a blonde!
Me: I’m not? 
Darling husband: No!! You don’t have the coloring for it. 
Me: Oh, so my children who look exactly like me don’t look good as blondes?
Darling husband: Oh....
It’s okay, I’m over it after seeing all the platinum blondes at Target .